Day +154

Been a while since I updated the blog, so I'll try to remember as much as I can in this post. Mother's Day was almost two weeks ago, and I had a great time with both Kate and my mother. Unfortunately that night my left eye started watering, and wouldn't stop until I fell asleep that night. When I woke up in the morning my eyelids were hard to open because I had dried tears caked in my eyelashes. I had been having a bit more crustiness when I woke in the morning, but the excessive watering and crustiness were both new. I went ahead and called NIH and got a quick appoointment the next day with the opthamologist. I was pretty down at this point, because I was worried about having the GVHD affecting my eyes as well.

I consider myself a pretty good patient, but I absolutely hate visiting eye doctors. I can't stand anything going near my eyes, and I wasn't looking forward to this visit. The first test the nurse had me do involved putting a tab in between my lower eyelids and my eyeball. That was uncomfortable, but I did relatively well by my standards. I had to do that twice, once with eye drops and once without.

Later I saw the opthamologist and she did an exam that was uncomfortable at times, however she had some decent news for me. The main concern with occular GVHD is dry eyes. Having dry eyes can lead to a lot of serious complications with eye sight, but apparently my eyes tear really well. From the examination the doctor didn't see any signs of infection, but she couldn't rule it out either. She explained that while the new immune system didn't appear to hurt the gland that produces water in the tears, it might be hurting the glands that produce oil. Without enough oil in the tears, they would evaporate quickly, and that was what was causing the crustiness around the eyes. She gave me an antibiotic for my eyes, and explained a few things to help keep the glands located near the eye lashes clean and effective. She told me that I would probably deal with this problem for about a week, but that she wasn't concerned about GVHD or an infection.

So I left that appointment in a much more positive mood, and the only thing left to do before heading out to Wisconsin was my Hickman removal. On Wednesday I went in to get the Hickman taken out, and I did that with a process that took about 20 minutes. I was numbed up pretty good, and there was some yanking and pulling by the doctor before it was all done. Its definitely been a great feeling to have the Hickman out. I don't have to worry about my movement at all, and I can jump into the shower again.

With the Hickman out, it was off to Wisconsin with Kate, Isaiah, and Matt. I drove the first 350 miles and felt pretty good doing that. My eyes started to water a bit, and that bothered me enough that I didn't want to drive any longer. That was really the last night that my eyes bothered me significantly, and they have been getting better since then.

The trip to Wisconsin was a lot of fun. Milwaukee was a fun city to hang out in, although we saw its good side without the sub-zero temperatures and several feet of snow.

I had an appointment with the dermatologist at NIH after driving back to Maryland. She felt my skin was more irritated compared to two weeks ago when she had seen me. She took a look at my mouth as well, and showed some concern about the GVHD. She called one of the doctors with the transplant team who explained to her that the team wanted to taper me further off of the immune suppressants because I still have evidence of disease. The dermatologist seems to think more immune suppressants are needed because of the progression of the GVHD, but that isn't an option until the cancer is gone. So until the PET scans show I am cancer free, it seems like I'll have to deal with the GVHD and the doctors will try to treat it topically. The dermatologist bumped me up from a moderate steroid to a strong steroid for the rash on my neck and chest. Since doing that just two days ago, I think I've noticed a difference already.

The next thing up was heading back to work. Yesterday was my first day returning to work, and I made it back again today. Things went well, and I was able to control my environment without letting anybody put their hands all over me or get stuck in any groups. I did meet with one student one on one, which felt good to do again, and also did some more administrative work to help out one of my superiors. I was pretty tired yesterday and ended up falling asleep when Isaiah did. I wasn't as tired as when I worked while going through chemo. However, I definitely realized that I'm not back to the energy level that I should have. It was good to be back though, and the kids and the staff made me feel good to be back.

So after a brutal two day work week I will take a day off from school tommorow to have a PET scan before the three day weekend. Its only been a month since my last scan, but I had my immune suppressants tapered afterwards. With the lower level of immune suppressants there will hopefully be some good results on this scan. As always...prayers and good thoughts are appreciated, and hopefully I'll have some good news to report tommorow evening.